1- Wandering

Original:

Wandering
Wandering past your door
Wandering past your soul
Wandering past your heart

Halting
Halting my hurried steps
Halting my speeding pulse
Halting my maniac thoughts

Seeing
Seeing you with her
Seeing your happiness
Seeing what I once had

Believing
Believing in Love
Believing in Hate
Believing in Revenge

Wandering
Wandering past your tattered body
Wandering past her shattered dreams
Wandering past my fading sanity



New:

Wandering
Wandering past memories that cling like spider webs
Wandering past my own sense of self entitlement
Wandering past the what ifs, and if I's, and if you's
Wandering past regret and shame and embarrassment
Wandering past the 'how could you's and the 'how could I's
Wandering beyond a relationship that finally begins to fade

But Halting
Halting my memories and regrets and shame and what ifs
Halting my defeated acceptance of everything that has changed
Halting my 'I can forget you and everything you did'
Halting my eyes as I...I...

See
Seeing this new girl flirt with you
Seeing this long hair, and perfect skin and fun personality
Seeing this new you for the first time since
Seeing this perfect body and healthy palour
Seeing this new attraction between you two
Seeing this bubbling of jealousy in my once stilled heart

But once more...

Wandering
Wandering past my will, tossed like a rag doll to the ground
Wandering past my self esteem, nothing more than ashes
Wandering past sanity, long gone, completely forgotten
Wandering past YOU
Finally.
Wander on.


~Eve